i haven't posted in quite a while, we had a tragedy in my family. my younger brother took his own life about 10 days ago. people have been calling and emailing to check in on me and my parents. we are left wondering why but i am trying to find comfort in the fact that whatever was causing him to suffer, he is no longer in that pain. i believe in forgiveness and that he is in heaven watching over me and my family now. nothing will ever replace him...i will miss his smile and his hugs and the way he always teased me about all kinds of things. how i dress my boys, if i had a pimple, if he thought i was being too uptight about something...whatever. and the stories of us growing up as kids will now have to be told by me. that's a shame because i'm not the funny one, he is. his service last week was attended by over 800 people. friends, family and acquaintances. people i graduated from highschool with over 16 years ago attended to support me, i got cards from people i haven't heard from in over 20 years, and finally i have been overwhelmed by the support and love that my true friends, new and old, have offered. your thoughts and prayers are appreciated.